oh nizzle

you monopolize me. HAHA. im a wasteman yep.
its gettin ridiculous.
so much faaaaaaaaaaaackkkkkkkkkkkiiiiiiiiiiin confusion, its not even worth it.

yep.

head against the table, beeeeeer, and a gooood dose of friendzzzzzzzzz.
remedy.
unfamiliar place.
remedy.

not give a shitttttt and just jam jam jam.
remedy.


:P

blog it all out. SGHEEEEEEEEM

time= no 1
jibberish

ummmmmmmmmmm, yea. actually too much.

i am pathetic.

shiizzle my dizzle tomizze tizzle i fizzle sizzle ezzle tozzle dizzle,

"why do you put make up on?

oh i don't know......it makes you feel more human.

... you look like a vampire"

boi knowzzz

whats in a name

errrmm

shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaattttttttttttttt

kurt

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4xHl-P_arVA


magic

boo-ya ( i love this pic)

when i get to the bottom i go back to the top of the slide, then i stop and i turn and i go for a ride, till i get to the bottom and i see you agaaaaaaaainn YEAYEAYEA!! - the beatles

man thats a good song.

i play guitar way too much for someoone whose not even immproving or learning any songs, or making up any songs. I don't even know what i do on it. i just spend so long just strumming out random stuff which seems to sound nice. Such a waste of time,but its not a waste because i enjoy. And no i do not have sexual relations with my guitar coz i know thats what your thinking SHLAAAAAAAAAG! yes im talking to you. too many jokes with the guitar. Just a peng instrument basically. pure and simply a peng instrument.

how siiiiiiick would it be to perform in fromt of an audience at wembley or something, and watching them all mosh out to your music. Would be absolutely mental. good mental. that is my dream. Wembley. Thats my unattainable one anyway, because lets be honest, is it evr going to happen, no. but, you can never let go of hope. i think you can when you reach 40. thats the cut off for dreams like that one. Unless your crazy. and not going to be crazy. im gonna be some boring bog standard 40 year old who is happy with how hes living. Im not a risk taker. I kind of wish i was, but despite my constant thoughts that what we do in this life does not matter at all, i just seem to blend in and like it. so yessss.

thought for the day: is it cruel to put a bat in a cave with flies if it has a blindfold.

Answer: i've studied bats all my life and i know they use echolocation so of course it wouldnt be cruel. i dont need to think about it.

^^ - stupid arrogant bitch.

WOOP to the WOOP

so you, so you wanna be married? I'M GONNA CHANGE YOUR MIND! - jimi hendrix (epic)

orange sheesha is the shiiiiiiiit.

need to see a film at the cinema soon, last time iwen was at least 7 months ago. shocker.

i am growin a beard, and im well excited. every mornin i wake up and check how its goin. and if ever i look at it i always think it looks crapso far and plan to shave it. but then, on my way past a mirror at some point in the day i just glimpse and i am one cool motherfucker for that split second. no one can take that from me,no matter how uncool i am in reality.

yesterday night was a jamjamjamjamjamjam, was bout 12, went into the front room, brought my blanket, lay down on the sofa, put on the bob marley at very low volume, shuffled that and just proceeded to think. was so fine. moments like that are da ting.

imagine suddenly being paralysed. and im not gonna lie ive started thinking about this because of glee. OK.IM ALMOST A FAN. I SAID IT. but yea being paralysed from the neck down if uve lived quite long with a fully functioning body would be so depressing. I like to think id be all 'it could be worse' and happy and prophetical about it, but the straight out truth is id probably be miserable, make people feel guilty about having a body and the only part of the day i would enjoy would be people sympathising. id handle being blind a lot better i reckon. itd be easy to take the piss out of urself and i think touch is so important for sanity. so important. i dont think id ever commit suicide, no matter how bad shit got. because i wouldnt want to give satisfaction to the people putttin me through the shit, even if there was no one actually doing it. principles.

drive? no drive? hmm...

what ANIMAL am i

rarararararrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
i am a lion

moommoomoomoomomooo
i am a cow

woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooof
i am a dog

meeeeeeeeeeoooooooooooowwwww
i am a cat

twaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaattt
i am a tory

hissssssssssssssssssssss
im a lib dem (dirty little sell out snakes)


politics rant is done.

give me gooooooooooood timess

im so grateful for ya
so grateful

dappy

yoyoyo

im so sick coz i have some jokes name which isnt quite happy,
coz its got the d, ill leave you delirious
dont get rude or youll get me all serious
i wear some sic hat,
but i look like a prat,
and also a prat,
which is quite impressive 4 someone with no SATS
i is in this music thing called n-dubz
and we rip loads of clubs
coz our rhymes are so fly
and i dont even try
im representin those gettin bullied
those who get beaten and mullered
but if you say that i aint right 4 the role
THEN ULL FACKIN THREATEN YA COZ THATS WT IM LIKE YES YES AND TING REPPIN MY ENDS AND TING




What a mug.

mmmmmmm

'look whose crawling up my wall, black and hairy very small, now hes up above my head, hanging by a little thread. BORIS THE SPIDER!' - the who

why do headphones always magically tangle themselves in the pocket of a human being. I've only ever seen actual magic on tv and in trouser pockets with bloody headphones. Surely magic can find a better use of itself than inside peoples pockets where it can't even be seen. scientists need to pick up on this phenomenon so they can work on transferring the magic
economists use the word phenomenon a lot for some reason. in all the text books stuff like the price of something rises when demand rises is apparently a phenomenon. when a tax puts the price of stuff up this is apparently a phenomenon. and when a company becomes more popular because its prices have gone down, THIS IS A PHENOMENON. wow,economists are a right bunch of jokers, must have proper exciting lives. here are the equivalents:
maths: 1+1=2; PHENOMENON
English: shakespeare wrote loads of stuff; PHENOMENON
history: Hitler was bad; PHENOMENON
geography: some mountains are quite tall; PHENOMENON
science: gravity makes things fall; PHENOMENON
stupid economists think their subject area is all LALALA and WOOP WOOP.NO.

why do ipods often decide not to turn off

starting to realise life is pointless or, perhaps more true, a successful life is pointless. either way your gonna spend more time wherever you go after you die, whether your concious or not. does this attitude go when your an adult? because all i see every day is a load of adults taking life far too seriously. far too seriously. and theres too many youngens taking life too seriously as well. I DONT GIVE A FUCK IF YOU DUMPED HER OR VICA VERSA, JUST JAM ITS NOT IMPORTANT. OH, YOU HAATE YOUR LIFE? GET SOME PERSPECTIVE. YOUR YOUNG. YOU CANT MEET HIM FOR THE SEECOND TIME IN ONE DAY--WHY ARE YOU CRYING ABOUT IT, ITS ONLY LIFE. GOD, just jam.

on a bus today and the bus driver doesnt know english, i ask him whether we have gone past where i needed to go and he couldnt understasnd me, so i stay on and end up nowhere useful. wayyyyyyyyyy outttt. so yarrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. was a peng day though so was cool.

lets have a philosophical debate...
is god real?
dont know.

blah

"you know that it would be untrue, you know that i would be a liar, if i were to say to you, girl we couldn't get much higher" - the doors

on the run is orgasmic. when its loud IT IS AN ORGASM. AN ORGASM. AN ORGASM. absolute genious. unquestionably.

i feel like i've been living in a mirror recently. and i'm not saying that in a figurative or deep or emotionally fragile way...physically i feel like i have been living in a mirror. its amazing. its like everything is backwards when you go back to it. like i'll be somewhere in my house, and i go back to it a little later, and everything is backwards. so weird. have to adjust myself. strange stuff.

ummmmmmmmmmmmm, whats the appeal of drinking on the street, i don't see why anyone would intentionally go out to do that, apart from to say "i went out last night and got smashed/jonnered/fucked/beered/mashed/etc." which isn't cool anyway sooooooooooooo....................

friends are essentialllllllll, keeep em' close. when shit happens they'll help, for sure. even if they say everything wrong the fact their there and know you are down is enough. clocked the importance. straight up. diggin it dawwg.

pink anderson. floyd council.

life, anyone?
might as well

allllllllllllllllllllllooooooooooowwww

"you, yes, you, stand still laddy!!!!!!!" - Pink Floyd

allow it brav

allow how manz can basically kick me out of a public place. me and a friend had to leave a park for fear of getting mugged. thats so sad and pathetic. how can the lowest shitheads of society rule my life. it just isn't right. they just stroll around owning places. survival of the fittest just isn't right, quite clearly. because good people get fucked over. unnecessarily. they rule the routes that i go home in after a night out ('av a bubble), they rule the right times to cross the road and they rule that weird feeling i get when i'm scared. the fear feeling. its a horrible one. its like someone has tied a stone to your heart whilst it tickles something in your stomach while it waves forward and backwards.

im just sayyyin...........

blues

"what a shame, nothing seems to be going right, it seems easy to me that everything should be going right" - the rolling stones

blues is absolutely amazing music

the rawest, blackest forms of blues are by far the best. it has to be said, white blues, although awesome, doesn't reach the emotional heights of black blues. The stuff like Leadbelly and Son House are sooo cool, it is the first blues, the slavery blues. it seems like a load of mashed up crap, but watching and listening is amazing, its hard to take your eyes off them as they pour out whatever is inside of them by singing and strumming. that is a gift. a gift. every single song it looks like they are going to die from singing it, maybe because they think every song could be their last.
then stuff like BB king is just easy, beautiful music which is also full of emotion - mostly seen through how much they sweat...peng stuff. every note (in some songs)tell a part of a laboured story. its glorious.
then you have rolling stones, john mayel and cream and kinks and the like, which is more stand up blues, more bass and stuffs. sounds cool, just dont quite feel the pain or happiness.

whichever slave first picked up that old guitar, and started singing and strumming their stuff, is a legend. genius.

deep

an uncontrasting oxymoron


is it sad i am proud to have come up with that

shit

"picture yourself in a boat on a river, with tangerine trees and marmalade skies" - The beatles

shit. shit. shit.
NO! ARGH!
made a mistake, but you live and learn.

i do see the funny side, even though there really isn't one. I do that a lot, find situations that are not funnny and think their funny. thats good i decide, because its true that nothing is really that important.

me talkin shit about music

i always wonder whether if amazing bands from the past (60's and 70's bands)were to come to nowadays without ever having been heard before and played the same songs, would they have any success in the charts and just generally. i think theyd be very popular with a group of people but not have too much success because they would remain generally unknown.

eg the beatles. if they came to today with songs like hello goodbye and can't buy me love would anyone take any notice- would i take any notice? i'd probably think they were some gay band...
but their not, their awesome. i think i'd hear stuff like come together and helter skelter and be like YES PLEEAAAAASSSEEEE.

i wish a band like that or zep or floyd came and fucked over the people who sell records because they got shot 17 times in the ghetto and survived. or the people who sell records because they can sing into a machine that makes them sound good, or sell records because they can play about 2 notes on piano. rant over!


Led Zeppelin
Pink Floyd
Rolling Stones
The Beatles
Creedence Clearwater Revival
The Who
The Grateful Dead
Cream
David Bowie
Queen
The Clash
The Yardbirds
Jimi Hendrix
The Doors
James Brown
Aretha Franklin
The Stranglers
Dire Straits
Nirvana

ALL ARE SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SICK, i'd happily die to go to this concert

Music today is alright though, some of it. But only a few live up to ^^these guys standards

Comets on Fire
Withcraft
(theres others but can't think at the moment)

But there will be one soon that smashes everything, just like Nirvana did in the 90's

3rd march

"this is a diary, its an investigation, its not a public enquiry" - dire straits

nothing happened on the 3rd march. i was sure something bad was going to happen. i'm a bit disappointed in a way. for some reason. i wanted my prediction to be right, even if it meant me getting hurt. haha, ha... :|

life is long

"the tides have caused the flames to dim" - led zeppelin


life is a trekkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
wow, so long
but then you get old people saying how quick its gone, but it hasn't. its actually so long. think about a second. ok thats quick. now think about a minute. thats quite quick. 10 minutes is still a bit quick.then an hour is sort of an average amount of time. 10 hours is sort of a long time. then a day is quite a long time. ten days is long. and then a year is just a trekkkkkkkkkk. and we are on this earth on average about 70 years or something. So i dont buy this whole life goes quick. because it goes all the same. so yes, when i do die, i know i will have lived a satisfactory life.

i dont know what i'm on about.but its a long life. long enough. and although regrets are inevitable its jokes times till the regrets come!!!

we are 1

"Backed up on the freeway, backed up in the church,
Ev'rywhere you look there's a frown, frown." - creedance clearwater revival

its weird to think how every human being has their own mind. every single mind working in similar ways to our own. its easy to get engrossed in our own emotions and we forget we are just like everyone else. we think that its only us thinking and its our life, but everyone else is doing the same. if you look at yourself while your not doing anything you will see the kind of person who you see every day on the bus and think is a generally irrelevant person - some people glance at you and don't even acknowledge your existence, but you do exist. to you, you are having the fullest existence and exist most vividly, but to them your an obstacle in their vision for a second.....and then your not even that. fuck me this is gayly deep. assuming there are 6 000 000 000 people on the planet, we are hundred per cent insignificant to about 5 999 999 930 and like 90% insignificant to about 5 999 999 995 people. the only person we are totally significant to is ourselves. that is strange to think, but only one out of 6billion people is fully significant to us. wow. but thats also cool, because it proves to us that we are ourselves the only people who we can completely trust and believe.

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this is too much, lighter blogs to come, for my sanity

march 3rd

something is going to happen on the 3rd of march. i have no idea what. i feel like a pretentious psychic, but something is actually going to happen on the 3rd of march.




we shall see

i am such an idiot

"you've got that pure feel, such good responses, but the picture has a moustache" - Cream

I am such an idiot. why is it that when i look back on something it seems so fucking obvious that i shouldn't have done/said something. so fucking obvious. and yet it happens anyway. I'm quite clever (...) but for some reason clear things don't come to me (im talking social). SO OBVIOUS. its unbelievable. I'm such a fool. Want to apologise but i'm worried it'll make it worse. ha.

i can only say that i'm just not the person to come to in serious situations, or when people need actual help. its a horrible thing to admit, but i just can't seem to do or say the right things. whenever i do try i either am totally insensitive or make myself seem totally insensitive. whatever it is i don't seem to help. but yea, i'm not a supporter at all. i think i'm only any use in the good times. i guess i'll just be the guy who can make people laugh when their happy. which is alright. but with that i think when they are not happy i force them to smile, out of politeness. and i think i've helped, but all i've done is (WARNING: DIRTILY CHEESY DEEPNESS)brought a rose to the cheeks whilst the rose inside them dies. so yes, overall its quite a sad realisation, but it means i can play to my strengths. its great to think we are good at comforting and we help people feel better, but i can't, not when people are very sad.

but, and there is a but, if everyone was brilliant at supporting and there was no one else that would just be shit. which is why people can go to others when they need help and look at me when they feel like it. its just nice to think that you help people through tough situations. but i'm not, so whatever. :D

allls good

do you think he smells of corn?

"this guy stops me, he'd just got in from new zealand, and he was looking for mushy peas. i said, no, we haven't really got them around here" -Strummer and the Mescalaros

wow skiing was too many jokes
i think i might have split a side
nonetheless was goooooooooooooooooooooood
must have pissed off most of the resort: mission accomplished

dancing
cockney
loud
world cup
CORN
problem?
scotland
scottish
pigboy, piggy
ROONEY

that list is memorious, because that should be a word that exists

but yes, anything could have happened when you have been away with no contact from the place you live, where all the people you know are. there is a chance that you will come back innocently and end up finding out your life has been ripped apart. and this is depressing, but imagine if a friend died. that would be the worst thing. especially the guilt, if you know that you have been having loads of fun whildt your friend is dead what would that do to you. rip you apart. no question. well it would me. or if you came back and the house had burnt down and you had to live somewhere else. or if your school headteacher has been assassinated because he was actually in the mafia and he had double crossed his mafia boss by siding with the other side and then got caught for tax evasion and both sides of the mafia thought he would grass them up to get out of it so one of them assasinated him but no one knows who.

luckily none of this happened to me. and so i continue a normal child who has had a super protected life where nothing has gone badly wrong. AWESOME.

i want to be in the mafia. so badly. thats one thing i'd trade my life for. No joke. :|

do you think he smells of corn?

leaving

"And all that you slight , And everyone you fight ,And all that is now , And all that is gone , And all that's to come, And everything under the sun is in tune, But the sun is eclipsed by the moon" - pink floyd

when you leave somewhere (for somewhere relatively far) it is blown way out of proportion in my head just because i am leaving. for example, i am quite sad that i am leaving the country for a week and won't see most of my friends in this time. But to be honest, its only a week. a lot of people i dont see in a week anyway, but for some reason it is still sad. weird how the brain does that. its like if i was going to stay at a hotel in london for a week in a hotel or something and i knew i wasn't going to see people it wouldn't bother me as much. AND EVEN NOW I'M OVERDOING THINGS IN THIS. I'M NOT EVEN THAT SAD BOUT GOING. WTF. i'm acting as if i'm having emotional breakdown because i'm leaving for a week, and as if i have actual problems. This is what blogs do. makes you write aboout things as problematic when their not. thats whats great about them i think. its great that they do that, spices life up a little. ok i've gone off track, a bit like holden caulfield. What a G. my man!!

"Goodbye to the century, Farewell to amnesty,Christen the sons and daughter, Let it lie, Let it bleed" - comets on fire

i had managed to convince myself i wanted to be a lawyer. where did i get this idea from? NOWHERE! the only thing i know about law and lawyers is what i see on TV, which is totally misguided ans/or glamourised (and isnt even lawyershipness!!). oh, and that it pays well. the pay i couldnt give a shit about, because bein rich has few uses, especially because i dont spend much. and also i'd end up feeling guilty for being rich.
in conclusion, theres no reason for me to be a lawyer. Back to square 1 then. i have no idea what to grow up to be. thats cool. a lawyer is a boring thing to say you want to be when your older, the only reaction is 'oh...'
how about:
-Elephant/Ostrich racer
-the second messiah
-God
-hole puncher of all things great and small
-paradise island caretaker
-stadium announcer (and do different accents every time)
-ferret trainer

tuesdays?

"my dreams, they aren't as empty, as my conscience seems to be" - the who

every tuesday i get stressed. every other day is fine. why? probably just dont like tuesdays. how sad. i used to like tuesdays.
good old tuesdays.